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You scored as Yog-Sothoth You are Yog-Sothoth! You are a know all, you know too much perhaps, but you hate people knowing your business unless that is you want to gossip or share it with a close friend. Youre also rather snoopy to get the knowledge you aquire! Yog-Sothoth 70% Shub Niggurath 40% Cthulhu 25% Nodens 20% Azathoth 20% Hastur 20% Nyarlathotep 15%

When i took an extra day last week at the awful store on 20th & burnside there was a stray cat outside when i arrived. I didn't want the beautiful all black kitty to get squashed by a bus so i brought him inside & put him in the bathroom for a few hours. when i realized there was no way i could possibly bring him home with me i put him back on the porch with some food & water. The next customers who came in took him home with them. So i did a very good deed for a sweet little animal. Its in my nature, animals are a passion of mine, always have been. Well apparently the persnickety area manager of that store Vicky got really pissed off about this. What do you want from me, my mom was the president of the local humane society from the time i was 5 until just before i finished high school, i will do what ever i can to help a stray. All pets deserve good homes :). So she doesn't want me working at any of her stores, unfortunately most of those are the ones along powell but ya know what, fuck her. FUCK YOU VICKY. I did the right thing and you can kiss my ass :P.

took the Dante test from Autumn's LJ post:

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

It says I scored really high on the violent :( but I don't really think I'm actually a violent person...just have a lot of rage i guess.
I scored high on lustful (big shocker), and the gloomy.

Trying to keep myself motivated in this small little house (I hate that I call this hole that, its no house...its a room in a tenement building :P). Really wanting to finish my sewing commission for Amber (her pretty corset), but the crowdedness just seems to suck all the get up and go out of me.
Hoping that tomorrow will go okay for work...its pay day for a lot of people which usually makes for a fairly fruitful afternoon, but its also the day of the full moon, and with the number of creeps I've been attracting on the rise it makes me a little warry, (especialy after that guy earlier today...hope i don't have bad dreams about him, i keep seeing his creepy facial expression periodically in my minds eye...just something very, very not right *shudder*).
Anyway, I'm going to go snuggle and stuff, I needs to feel better. Perhaps tomorrow I'll work on the back story of my SCA persona Dante Blackwood (we're currently debating as to whether or not we'll be actually having a ship of our own or if we may just decide to join up with the wench like we were thinking last year...or hell if we'll be sharing a home port with the grimalkin we may see about joining them...technically its the ship Blaine belongs to anyway). but anyhow, ttyl

Lysander the dancing satyr

I just had a client who had is first and only visit to me as a provider(blacklisted). This guy, I don't know what it was about him (I think he was a speed freak to be perfectly frank)...he was oozing this, putrid energy...he was poorly kept and scrawny, scrawny, and his eyes had this hallow, starved, hungriness to them (think like you just encountered someone posessed), i just burnt my sage wand down to the nubs cleansing the room, the second he walked into the apartment I had a wicked case of the shakes (my hands were twitching and my whole body was shaking). I was afraid he was going to try something, they way he kept glancing around the room and such. frightening guy. the room is cleansed, i saged the money as well (money which would ordinarily go in the money holding drawer with the blessed coins of money drawing...but i dare not put this money in there). *seriously creeped out, still kind of shaky, hoping blaine gets home soon*

I think they're roto-rootering (sp) the pipes in our apartment complex (i keep hearing something that sounds like one of those metal pipe snakes making echoing noises throughout the pipes), hopefully they'll be done soon as i have a headache. wishing I had the other $30 i need so i could just get more green because all i have is like crystalized pot powder in the bottom of a plastic jar :P, because damn i could really use a nice, BIG relaxing hit right now.

Got up early and went to my interview at UPS, I think it went really well, the girl there seemed to like me (I felt very confident this morning wearing my favorite outfit & lookin good with my cute/sexy rainbow&black scarf...and my MEGA DYKE boots, lumberjack boots that if i had facial hair would make people go "oh, a cute gay bear cub" currently people see them and think "whoa, look at the boots on that dyke", never the less i like them). I met a dude who was a full ocular albino, very neat (looked kind of weird since he was a natural red head with a red goatee...and they weren't contacts, i checked). There was only one girl with our tour group, who was a cute butch girl about my height but more lean with short burgundy hair, very cute.
They only offer $8.50 to start (but you start making $9 after your first 3 months...not bad), the benefits are good: full health, dental & vision after 5 months (you can get your health benes early if you work 80hrs. before you reach 5 months), you also get a discount on stock purchases (10% off the lowest sell price of the quarter, not bad), and then there is always the 401K etc, and tuition coverage (up to $3,000 a year) which means if this works out I'll be able to get my 30hrs of required credits out of the way so i can be a full time student at PSU hopefully by 2008. I can wear my piercings if I like, which means next time most of you see me I'll have both eyebrows pierced like I used to (though I'll likely take my labret out and put my retainer in during work hours). They have a union too, which is nice because it means they can't pull random shit like FedEx Ground & WalMart can get away with, which adds a bit of comfort to it.
Anyhow, I'm going to go food and relax & try and get a little work in before my later engagements. *hugs & kisses* blessed be.

Lysander the dancing satyr

TIME STAMP

READY, SET, TOKE UP :D

I HATE OUR NEIGHBORS!!! the whole complex is conspiring to drive me insane. so much NOISE they make, GAH!! While i was making my lunch the people in 407 (through our living room wall) we're playing their music so loud i could almost make out the lyrics and then, as I'm sitting here typing, either the people in 306 or 506 (my money is on the later as they are REALLY noisy fuckers above us) is playing something with base so loud i can feel it in my heart beat :S.
its not healthy to hate people you don't know...but GAH!!!

and one of the guitar players sat down next to me (wish it had been the girl...who I'm betting was lead vocals, she was hot)...this happened last night on the bus ride out to southeast to run errands, but anyway.
I started reading stuff by Lovecraft yesterday, so far I've read "Dagon" & "The Call of Cthulhu" and I'm currently working my way through "Shadow Over Innsmouth" (the movie Dagon, which we watched with Blaine's dad over chirstmas break was based on a corroboration of the short story Dagon and the tale Shadow Over Innsmouth...i highly recommend the movie, acting was kind of :P but what they spared budget wise on actors they blew on bitchin make-up, and one really awesome CGI seen towards the end...plus one really hot chick). I must say I am a bit disappointed by the lack of actual description of these really horrific things (the phrase "indescribably horrific" and things like "i dare not speak of its awfulness" etc. crop up a lot)...the way people had talked him up to me (especially Sam...my first Trans. friend/first Portland friend) I was expecting Stephen Kingesque long, detailed descriptions of gore...but then I must keep in mind that Lovecraft was a writer in the 1920's and thusly the lack of these traits that I commonly look for when critiquing the horror literature that I read is more or less excusable due to the time period. I must say that I while I am a bit disappointed by the lack of really detailed descriptions of horror, I am not at all put off him as I find the premise of the "Elder Gods" and their great Cyclopean architecture quite a fascinating and original one. I myself am afraid of going beyond the shallows when at the ocean because I have seen videos of deep sea marine exploration, and I am (frankly) quite afraid that something like like Cthulhu or Dagon could be down there (always have been). I don't like being in water that I can't see to the bottom of clearly. The great depths of the dank, dark, aquatic unknown.
I regaled Blaine with a story from my preteen years, when my family had gone to Canada in the summer to visit my mom's side of the family, and Aunt Jo & Uncle Al decided to take us camping at this beautiful, glacier fed, lake high in the mountains. The water in the creek at our campsite was so clean & pure you could drink it (it was good water) and the wilderness was just gorgeous and very pristine (Canadian camp ground...at least not this one...nothing like American camp ground, i didn't see a single RV, or camper...which isn't THAT surprising since i sure as hell wouldn't want to drive one up the mountain road either). We were camping at a place called Lake Shahaylus (i KNOW thats not spelled correctly, but I can't for the life of me remember how to spell it so thats a phonetic reproduction...yay for sounding it out like a big boy :P lol), and the water was so clean and pure that you could see straight to the bottom, even out toward the middle my brothers told me (i was WAY afraid to go out in a boat...hells no), we had been playing diving games with an old gym sock we had filled with some rocks from the beach, tossing it just out from shore a ways and then diving out to get it. On one of my turns I was diving down, it had gone a little further from shore than intended, and I had spotted it, closed my eyes and started my decent to it, pulling my self under with strong strokes of arm & leg, i open my eyes and reach for the sock then look up and see: THIS HORRIBLE TENTECALED MONSTROSITY OF DOOM!!!!(seriously, i almost shit my pants), twisty and gruesomely gnarled, reaching out in all directions with its massive tentacled mouth that was at the base of its great, trunk like head. I scream & let out most of the air in my lungs as i drop the sock, kick off the nearest rock and come gasping & flailing to the surface (my family on shore thought i had simply run out of air) as i come splashing to shore. "GAH, there's a monster in the lake, with a big tentacle head and it tried to get me!!!" they look at me sceptically with raised eyebrows, I turn and point in the direction of where i saw it and say "Right over...there...where that big oak tree is sticking half sunk out of the water...never mind" .
It was so funny afterward, gave me a great story to tell my friends after we got home from our trip. but man, reading "the call of cthulhu" i was thinking...i saw something like that when i was a kid...but it turned out to be a big tree :P. anyway.
hope you all enjoyed this amusing tidbit from my past...

Lysander the dancing satyr (who can't seem to touch type for shnit today :P)

Finished the piece I posted about last night


Transformation Pt.I & Pt.II- From Lydia...Into Lysander

enjoy :D

Lysander the dancing satyr

REALLY long day today, started out kind of stressful & depressing. While I wasn't able to bring in any business today I was able to drop my application&resume off at the PSU Bookstore. I also sent my resume out to several other places whilst diligently trolling the job postings on craigslist. I found out that UPS is hiring package handling, and since I actually REALLY enjoyed the work at FedEx last summer (I didn't enjoy my sexist supervisor treating me like crap and not giving me enough hours to make ends meet...was supposed to be working 6 hour shifts mon-fri, was getting sent home after 1.5-2 hours EVER smegging day) I'm hoping UPS will be a better place to potentially work for, I have an appointment there Monday at 11am, after which I'll be able to schedule an interview (or have an interview/talk to someone from HR)...wish me luck, I know its not a difficult place to get hired by, and hopefully they're not moronic dicks who will make me take out my piercings (seriously, like anyone in a smegging warehouse job gives a damn :P). so I may be gainfully employed again (FINALLY) in the near future *crosses fingers*. We just finished a ritual for job hunting luck for me...I am optimistic.
That my general news update today...I did the first half of a two part piece today, its titled "Transformation". Bellow is the first half...



Transformation Pt. I- From Lydia...

enjoy, commentary welcome and appreciated.

Lysander the dancing satyr


PS:
oh yeah, I didn't make the cut for the Mythological art show at the cafe on Freemont, oh well...at least the guy was polite about it. better luck next time...if the buggers from the powell's & backspace galleries would get back to me withs submission guidelines then we'd be going some where... *sigh*

I HAD to draw SOMETHING last night, ANYTHING just as long as i was at least doodling...I whipped out my sketchpad & good pencil & ruler and made this character:



this is Ed the androgynous goth, they're an exercise in creativity and while show up in LABN periodically...when they do I won't use any kind of gender pronouns to address them or anything like that, should prove interesting. I colored him this morning in photoshop in just under 4 hours :D go me and thank you to the awesome people who help me make my brush presets :D woot.



Ed so cute :D Beautiful Ed

Lysander the satyr

this then an art post:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.


OPENING CREDITS: Augstus Gloop- Danny Elfman Charlie & The Chocolate Factory

WAKING UP: Smoke Two Joints- Sublime

FALLING IN LOVE SONG: Better Than Chocolate- Sarah Mclaughin

FIGHT SONG: Bless The Child- Nightwish

BREAKING UP: Shanty For Arethusa- The Decemberists

LIFE IS GOOD: Take Me or Leave Me- RENT (movie soundtrack)

MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Little Drummer Boy- Dr. Girlfriend & The Monarch

DRIVING: Yankee Bayonet(i will come home then)- The Decemberists (first time I've listened to it, from their latest album which i just got a copy of yesterday :D thank you amber)

I had to take my braids out last night :( :( and ferociously wash my hair (last night and this morning) because i realized that both the soap i'd been using and the scent i had been using on my braids had given me HORRIBLE DANDRUFF (like MEGA bad snow storm dandruff). I rubbed my scalp with aloe gel and tea tree oil and my hair feels all better now. I've been in the process of rebraiding my hair this afternoon...almost done, i'll have fewer this time because i've made some of them thicker due to the coarseness of my nonchemical washed hair (thick-coarse...i have pictures of my hair looking just like that of my people, i may do a side by side pic in photoshop later). I love my branches, it felt weird to wake up and not have them this morning, shedding mounds of hair that had built up in my braids over the course of the last week and a half.
I made a new CD today "DJ Goat's latest spin" it turned out really good...lots of stoner humor music and a few show tunes etc. I put "La Vie Boheme" from the RENT soundtrack on there...i just love that song

I was thinking about my appearance issues earlier today and thinking about the fact that lately I have been aiming to look indistinguishably androgynous in my manner of dress, speech, etc. I KNOW that I will be worlds happier once I've started hormone therapy and every day I long more and more for my top surgery (seriously these fuckers are killing my poor back, I'm so top heavy... and I know the fact that some day my "glorious knockers" will be gone saddens some of you but suck it up because this isn't YOUR vessel :P), but I am also fully aware of my in ability to pass as male in day to day life outside of the home (mostly due to my stupid man-boobs) so I have been sort of trying to mess with people. I like the curious, I encourage curiosity...I'd much rather people ask questions than remain in ignorance. So when I go out I try to dress in a manner that makes people double take (not just in a sense of my non-adherence to mundane forms of dress, but by mixing gender styles), if people can't see that I'm a boi I at least want them to take a look and go "huh?" if nothing else...I want them to think "what?" or "...I wonder..." etc. when they see me around town. This thought inspired a T-shirt design (now available in my store at: http://www.cafepress.com/lysandersatyr ) the design for which is posted bellow


T-shirt design front


T-shirt design back

Proudly defying the gender binary coding since 2005...all hails da gender queer fuck queen...woot :P enjoy

Lysander the peculiar dancing satyr

Your results:
You are Mystique

Mystique 85% Venom 64% Catwoman 63% Two-Face 61% Poison Ivy 58% Dark Phoenix 56% Magneto 51% Apocalypse 49% The Joker 47% Riddler 43% Green Goblin 41% Mr. Freeze 40% Dr. Doom 34% Lex Luthor 21% Kingpin 18% Juggernaut 13%

Sometimes motherly, sometimes a beautiful companion, but most of the time a deceiving vixen.

Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test


I only scored 56% dark Phoenix, i figured that would have been the one i would have been more likely associated as. oh well, mystique is hot...guy who got to do her makeup for the move, luckiest man in Hollywood right ;) anyway as promised i am posting a pic of my redone piercing, this time i refuse to give them up...damned if i'll let them go again

I got my eyebrow redone finally :), we did my left one first, in about a week or so I'll go back over and have my right eyebrow redone...YAY :D. Then I get my nose pierced when I can afford to buy a nose ring. woo. I'll post a pic of my fun hair and fabulous redone piercing later after the batteries for the camera have recharged.

Because its snowy outside and I'm simply not feeling up to going out in it, and because i live down town and would get yelled at if i built a snow man on the sidewalk, i made a cute little digital snowman in photoshop. Started from scratch, he's entirely airbrushed, i'm so proud :D.



isn't he totally cute :D so yay for my digital snowman, i will name him...Fresco...yay :D

I snowed in, its too cold for the goat to go outside. I've been holed up in my lair, working and getting some work done on Amber's corset, just finished the pattern so, soon as I feel motivated, I'm going to take my old monitor down to the free table and then stop by the storage closet to locate the iron so I can start sewing :D. I'm super excited to have a sewing machine again, and to have an awesome project to work on too.
I made a bunch of new LJ ID pics, this is one of them. My new default pic is another. so yeah, enjoy the snow, try not to freeze and so forth.

Lysander the dancing satyr

Blaine just called me from downstairs, apparently its snowing outside (like an inch on the ground already). I worry if this will mean that we wont be able to make a run out to our friends house later...let us hope we still can.
We went supply shopping with Amber yesterday, bought the materials I'll need to make her corset (she's gonna look so pretty), she decided to go with black and purple, its going to look awesome. I just forgot to have her bring me a roll of the duck tape so i could finish the pattern, guess i'll have to pick some up at the store later. Yay for sewing, i finally get to break in my new machine. I also started working on another scarf yesterday, and am continuing work on my neat painting (which i'll photograph as soon as blaine and I borrow our friends camera for his school project). woo crafty goat.
I'm going to go do some stuff before i have to start work for the day, lets home the snow doesn't dampen business...though it probably will :( *sadness*.

Lysander the dancing satyr

My computer died last night, so I wrote a nice little obituary/eulegy for him.

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Edwardo D. Benetto
25/12/02 - 7/1/07
R.I.P.

Edwardo D. Benetto-
Edwardo was a HP pavillion a305v model that was given to Lysander Bennett as a Christmas gift in 2002. He started his life in humble service to a high school senior, but later went on to be upgraded, (wireless card, dvd & dvd-r/rw drives, and better programing) and began to be utilized for the pursuit of art. He assisted in the creation of all of what is Lysander D.B. DeLancey's current digital gallery. He also enjoyed entertaining with music, cartoons, and his highspeed internet connection. His hobbies were: downloading music/cartoons/movies/porn, running photoshop and producing art, saving photos and processing documents.
After many years of faithful service (and saddly bad maintainance) Edwardo died of a tapped out motherboard at the age of 5. His survivors were: Mr. Lysander D.B. & Mr. Blaine DeLancey. As was his request he was dismantled, his usable components removed and he will be laid to rest with a small ceremony after a replacement computer has been acquired.
You shall be missed old friend. R.I.P.
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